[ The bar is on the ground, honestly. He doesn't take loss very well. He stills so Pure Vanilla can wipe his tears, but something bothers him a little bit... ]
Aren't... you upset too?
[ He loves them both, it has to be distressing, right? Is he overreacting? ]
( It does hurt. It hurts, knowing that they went through pain. It hurts knowing that there’s nothing that he, a healer, can do to help ease it. And yet, it is not uncommon for Pure Vanilla to leave his regrets and pain to himself. And, Pavlova Cookie… he was in pain.
But, would it make it worse if he didn’t voice his concerns? His pain? He doesn’t want him to feel alone.
He stops for a moment, growing silent. )
I—
Never wish for those I care about to be in pain. And while I wish for nothing more than to see them again, they would not want for you or I to be in pain.
Even so, I… want to see them again. I regret that I could not help them in time…
You don't have it in you to be selfish about this, do you?
[ And maybe that sounds bitter, but only because he can't understand not being upset by something like this. Not feeling that bitterness of having been left behind. Or maybe he just doesn't want to show him that side of himself. ]
Regardless of what they wanted, it's what happened. You're allowed to be hurt, I think. But what do I know...
Do you think so? No matter how much I long for them to be safe, there is a part of me that still wants to see them again.
( And that in itself is what is selfish. )
I am certain that there is much that you wish to say. In the past, when White Lily Cookie and I parted ways, I often wrote my feelings in a letter. Perhaps... until they return, writing your feelings somewhere may help.
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Date: 2026-02-19 06:32 am (UTC)[ The bar is on the ground, honestly. He doesn't take loss very well. He stills so Pure Vanilla can wipe his tears, but something bothers him a little bit... ]
Aren't... you upset too?
[ He loves them both, it has to be distressing, right? Is he overreacting? ]
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Date: 2026-02-19 06:09 pm (UTC)But, would it make it worse if he didn’t voice his concerns? His pain? He doesn’t want him to feel alone.
He stops for a moment, growing silent. )
I—
Never wish for those I care about to be in pain. And while I wish for nothing more than to see them again, they would not want for you or I to be in pain.
Even so, I… want to see them again. I regret that I could not help them in time…
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Date: 2026-02-22 03:44 am (UTC)You don't have it in you to be selfish about this, do you?
[ And maybe that sounds bitter, but only because he can't understand not being upset by something like this. Not feeling that bitterness of having been left behind. Or maybe he just doesn't want to show him that side of himself. ]
Regardless of what they wanted, it's what happened. You're allowed to be hurt, I think. But what do I know...
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Date: 2026-02-22 05:50 am (UTC)( And that in itself is what is selfish. )
I am certain that there is much that you wish to say. In the past, when White Lily Cookie and I parted ways, I often wrote my feelings in a letter. Perhaps... until they return, writing your feelings somewhere may help.